From the Brain of Matty

feeling depressed (24.11.08 8:51 pm)

I hate feeling depressed. That horrible sort of numb/empty feeling, kind of devoid of anything but overwhelmed at the same time. Wanting or needing something, but having no idea what it is. Not even the faintest clue. Aside from "something I don't have right now." Then it just.. fades into the background, and you know it's still there, but it's all just numb again, and you can't feel anything. Not even the needing. There's a lot of stuff under the surface, somewhere, but it's underneath. Little bits can bubble up when you prod at them, mostly anger because that's the easiest emotion. I want to get angry, but I think it's just because I want something. Doesn't really matter what.

I hate it.

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